I was deeply hurt today by a Christian sister. I know that at various times I have hurt (or angered or confused or saddened) her as well. It is not a one-sided thing. I love her as a person and as my sister in Christ and I have no doubt that she feels the same way. And Christ's message is about love and kindness. It baffles me that with so much love and such a perfect example in the person of Jesus we can still get it wrong.This hurt is deep. There is a part of me that is trying to rebel, to run from all that I know and believe. I can't. God has done too deep a work in me since 2007. I have to drop to my knees and pray to be able to forgive, to turn the other cheek, to open my arms to the potential of further hurt. I can't behave in the same ways I did before I had an intimate relationship with the Lord, in the ways before I began to have a glimmer of understanding about grace.
It would be easier if I could. But the Christian life isn't about easier. It's about what's pleasing to God.